The road to spiritual enlightenment you cannot force. Once you have decided to be the path, to be the goal, this decision is having its own life within your heart and soul. You may read piles of books, run to courses and search for that big “light ball” to appear in your head, but it will not. Of course you understand more things in life, but this is not enlightenment.
Think of it as a seed of a flower or plant you put in the soil. Of course you can make it grow faster by artificial light, fertilizer and heating in a greenhouse. But when you put this artificial plant into its true nature and true environment, it will die because it is not used to the sometimes hard conditions and harsh weather.
But if you put this seed into its real environment, it will slowly grow up through the soil, through snow, up towards daylight and the dawning of spring which it knows is there. And by the help of sun and rain it will finally turn into a beautiful flower which again will give seeds to others and become a sustainable and growing spiritual meadow for other seekers to see.
But to become this meadow, you have to endure lots of growing pains; victories and downfalls until the seedling finally burst into this flower like a slow-motion picture of the phenomena. When you feel this is coming to you – BE in that moment – stop the world for a while – and just BE in the same wave as nature, tuned in with nature, and feel the healing effect of this spur of a moment. Nothing else matters.
Should you die in this moment, you will - in your next life – remember that never, ever have you felt so alive as in that very second when you and the universe of nature were one. Death should not be, will not be something you will fear after that.
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